Warm water splashed on my face,
To melt some of the ice in my veins,
It’s just another one of those days,
And you are only the fucking bane,
Of my miserable, pitiful existance.
All of these days I curse at myself,
For being so ignorant, so persistant,
And no drug in the world will help,
Because I’m telling myself right now,
It’d hurt me less if I never met you.
Caring for you is like living without,
Eyes, ears, or desire to find truth.
My body aches and I cannot walk,
Yet it’s the last thing on my mind,
I wait every night to hear you talk,
You only disappoint me every time.
I wish I never once said your name,
Or put it in a sentence with my own,
The thoughts just need to go away,
Right now I’d rather just die alone.
It’s hard to believe in you when I,
Will not believe in myself anymore.
Everyday without you I have tried,
To renew my faith and search for,
Some kind of meaning, even a sign,
To justify pushing on until the end.
Hollowness is in everything I find.
If I look deep inside of you again,
You are only going to let me down,
Make me believe you are worthless.
If I can forget you, show me how,
To make me believe you never lived.