Words of conviction fall from your mouth,
As if you don’t know how painful they are.
It’s hard enough trying to survive without,
Being shit on while you act like the martyr.
No drug in the world can replace the time,
I held your hand and you promised me that,
You’re different and will forever be mine.
It’s heart-breaking how long promises last.
I gave you everything,
For nothing back in return,
I am now forgetting,
Everything in my world.
I’m walking to the sun,
And blinding my memory,
This is the end, I’m done,
And all that I want to see,
When I do turn around,
Is the shadow of myself,
Only it won’t let me down,
Or leave me alone in hell.
I am an accident that’s waiting to happen,
And nobody else wants to get caught in it,
Somewhere this God of mine is laughing,
All I can do right now is agree with him.
Enough self-pity and loathing eventually,
Turns into suicide, but today is a day that,
It isn’t even worth the hassle or mess to me.
Everyone finds this funny, I find this sad.
Today should be the day,
That I kiss this all goodbye,
Tomorrow will be the same,
Leaving me to wonder why,
I don’t get it all over with,
And make it easier for you,
To go to sleep at night since,
I’m at peace with the truth,
And I understand clearly,
There’s no room for me here,
Although I love you dearly,
It’s best that the end is near.