Another day, yet another lost cause,
Engaged in another war but what for?
Rhetorical questions sift in my head,
Waiting for the answers to lie to me.
Still no traces of an escape clause,
Even if I cannot fight this anymore.
Every word is written boldly in red,
No loopholes, I am fucked clearly,
Your Jesus statues cannot save me.
In the midst of my mental stalemate,
On a road paved with deep regrets,
Without a safe spot for me to stand.
Not even I can tell me what I need,
My conscience lies to me everyday.
They say it works out for the best,
Yet I sit here with an empty hand.
I’m abusing myself, don’t know why,
Bent almost to the point of broken.
Yeah, this time will be the last time,
Such a terrible lie I always repeat.
Earning my wings for the other side,
Or that’s just what I’ve been hoping,
Feeding myself more of these lies,
Is my only way to combat sure defeat.
The smile on your face is lying to me,
Say something nice, that’s a lie too.
You can tell me you want me to die,
It’ll be the only honest thing you say.
Mental landmines are all that I see,
And I know I’ll never make it through,
With this smoke shield of your lies,
I am just one misstep from my fate.