Looking for love anywhere I can get it,
From street corners to the alley ways,
I bare all to anyone who pays attention,
Yet I come up empty every single night.
Too weary to walk and too proud to sit,
Degradation is the extent of my days,
These are the doldrums that do men in,
If I weren’t too stupid to quit this fight.
I shoot the moon and stars from the sky,
Praying to my God to let them descend,
So this time something will go my way,
So that I have a reason to renew faith.
Passersby stare daggers from their eyes,
Leaving open wounds drugs cannot mend,
I beg for mercy, they have nothing to say,
As the remnants of my words go to waste.
I pour my heart and soul out by the hour,
As it runs down into a sewer full of rats,
Where even they scatter a million ways,
To avoid this plague that is haunting me.
I sit here quietly like a fucking coward,
Praying that each breath will be my last,
I wait for falling stars to whisk me away,
If I will never be happy I can still dream.
Sunrises and nightfalls just come and go,
And the shadows they cast suit me well,
Witnessing nature hiding my imperfections,
Is one of the few small joys I have found.
My life’s hourglass moves painfully slow,
When there is no doubt that I am in hell,
A lifetime full of wars that I’ll never win,
I embrace defeat nightly without a sound.
Maybe it is true that I reap what I sow,
I am barely worth the air that I breathe,
A sidewalk of solitude paved in regrets,
Is all that I have accomplished thus far.
My admirable qualities nobody will know,
Negative traits are too hard to oversee,
Bad choices have left me forever in debt,
Until the day I’m crushed by falling stars.