I will not live to make you happy, I can at best only live for myself. It feels like you are on my chest, Hoping that I will never get away. Crosshairs locked directly on me, Is this not already just like hell, I’m all but out of sins to confess, And running out of […]
The journey is so unsatisfying, And apparently so is the pursuit. A million reasons to stop trying, And a million things left to lose. Faith is a story told to pass time, Sometimes used to create hope, Promising there might be a sign, Or a light further down the road. Every road eventually dead ends, […]
This melodrama I call my life, A never ending circle of hate, And an overwhelming distrust, Is it you or maybe all just me? It is true, Mom is always right, I regret my decision everyday, You are useless and helpless, Just like I’ve always believed. I wonder if I were never born, If the […]
Some days I think the sun will, Never reach me in plain view, And I’m far too tired to know, If I can survive one more fight. I can’t see through the tunnel, And I don’t want to continue, Without some glimpse of hope, All I ask for is artificial light. There’s nobody close to […]
I don’t know what I did, To make you hate me now, I also don’t seem to care, You’re less than a memory. I don’t need an analysis, Indirectly telling me about, The things you won’t dare, Stand and fucking tell me. I have never harmed you, Although now I wish I had, I might […]
Sorry dear, I’m not coming home, However many excuses you’d give, And I do not even think I know, If I have a good reason to exist. A living room lamp shines bright, There’s nothing in there for me, Right now I am too hurt to fight, Or cut your throats with humility. This is […]
With the eyes of the weary, And the strength of the weak, I travel this road helplessly, In a line with millions more. I walk under the sun, searing, As it subdues me to my knees, That keep on chasing a dream, Which could be just folklore. I peel off all of the blisters, From […]
A rope to the throat, or a knife to the heart, Neither hurt like not knowing who you are, Remember when I stuck my foot in my mouth, As I said you’re the one I can’t live without? Obviously I was wrong for the millionth time, I’ve been without you and I’m tired of trying, […]
Meant to die, but only to die alone, Since God doesn’t reward traitors, Fools, liars, or heathens like I am. Hope is for people that are prone, To become something a lot greater, Than a rotting soul, the Son of Sam. This is for you, in spite of you, mom, Your choice still haunts me […]
I look myself in the mirror everyday, Just to cringe when I see who I am. I have turned out to be what I hate, I am nothing, I am not worth a damn. I recall being assured at a young age, That I can be anything that I dream, But this face has had […]