I don’t know this God I kneel to, When I ask him to pull me through, Another day of hell in one piece, While I ask him to fulfill my needs. I don’t know where my prayers go, As well as having nothing to show, For each one sent out on the verge, Of suicide […]

I don’t cut myself, I don’t need, Sharp objects to make me bleed. You don’t notice, you don’t see, Incisions you once made on me. I’m sick of waiting, out of time, To repair your life, salvage mine. I don’t want you, nor your shit, I don’t fucking love you, get it? You said I’m […]

Fighting all alone, and losing, Both the battle and the war. No need, no point in choosing, To keep morale up anymore. Letters to home never make it, We’re dead until further notice. A loving wife and my only kid, Did nothing wrong to merit this. The outcome is predetermined, Everyone knows except for I. […]

Wasting away faster than a senior, Feeding pigeons on his park bench, Watching life and clouds pass by, Regretting everything he never did. Wondering if his saintly demeanor, Is the only reason that he’s meant, To wake up wishing he would die, In hopes of someday being missed. Wasting away faster than our Christ, Hanging […]

I think you’d be proud of me, If you could see how much, I’ve changed in a good way, Since you have been gone. I’ve matured a little it seems, Without growing up and such, I still remember you everyday, Though I’m still moving along. I try not to have the vices, That became your […]

I often wonder why you bother, Searching endlessly for lucidity, In a puzzle seemingly unsolvable, Somewhere amongst your stupidity, Barely deeper than your opinion, This is destroying your small mind, Trying to decipher the pieces in, Your life, even one day at a time. A key to happiness was misplaced, Long ago while running this […]

The person inside me is dead, And tired of pointing fingers, Looking for words once said, Showing why contempt lingers. A body still roams without aim, The masses often wonder how, One life can be wasted in vain, Even my God won’t save me now. Living one heartfelt apology, Which never seems sufficient, So hopefully […]

Everytime I speak, Every lie you keep, My fantasy is gone, I’m still holding on, But my simple mind, Must’ve gone blind, Why can I not see? I’m fucking the enemy. The pictures depress, Love letters regress, Whispers are screams, Manifesting my dreams, The violence is sincere, Unlike all of the tears. Everyone did warn […]

Buried alone somewhere beneath, Six feet of reality as I breathe, The dirt was poured over and I, Only do it to myself every time. I inhale, just killing myself again, Forcing myself to comprehend, That I am a nothing in the eye, To the one for whom I would die. Each passing hour is […]

One more day, one more try, To save myself, save my life. If only I, no one else at all, Has any hope, any withdraw, For why I wake up, move on, Without a razor blade, a gun, To straighten out, reattempt, This life, this creation meant, To endure, as well as cherish, Before a […]