This overwhelming emptiness is killing me,
I have never felt so replaceable until now.
Although I know that I’m not good enough,
All that I’ve ever asked for was a chance.
When all I’ve had to hold onto is a dream,
As your voice is clearly filled with doubt,
I feel like I have wasted all of this love,
And let another one slip through my hands.
I will self destruct and I will hope to die,
Retracing every misstep and every word,
Trying to figure out where I went wrong,
And how to deal with having ever hurt you.
I will never sleep again asking myself why,
And I will be incapable of loving anymore,
When I open the letter saying you’re gone,
And reality sets in reminding me it is true.
With every sentence I shatter like ceramic,
And my stomach begins to eat at my heart,
When I realize how little I actually meant,
To someone who claims to love me forever.
Knowing I am a throwaway makes me sick,
As I rip what is left of my humanity apart,
Wishing there was a way for me to repent,
For any of the sorrow that I’ve rendered.
My tears stain your side of the mattress,
Each day is a little bit harder just to cope,
I bite my lip every time I hear your name,
Because I know you cannot be replaced.
Without you I am completely worthless,
You were my last small glimpse of hope,
Happiness was totally displaced by pain,
And I’ll die if I ever again see your face.