Everything that I loved about you,
Is everything I hate about myself,
I really should think things through,
Before subjecting myself to hell.
You are the needle stuck in my arm,
A habit I promised myself I’d kick,
Before it could do this much harm,
Risking everything for one last fix.
You’re the poison that will kill me,
But I cannot seem to live without.
You are still not the drug I need,
Each overdose removes any doubt.
My body rejects you like a cancer,
But I still force myself to ingest,
I know addiction isn’t the answer,
I only tell myself it’s for the best.
You’re the worst thing in my world,
Knowing you are my ultimate fate,
Still you are all that I’m alive for,
You are merely too little, too late.
I will not let you ruin what is left,
I am a stronger person than this,
I want control over my own death,
And it will not be your final kiss.
I hated every bit of our existance,
You make me feel the urge to die.
You were my repented mortal sin,
This my dear is my final goodbye.