Every window has been sealed off,
And my doors have all been locked.
I patiently wait in my room to die,
Everything I’ve known was all lies,
Now I must find a way to forget,
Demons running through my head,
And how they make this torment,
Remain with me until the very end.
There is nothing keeping me here,
And nobody is worth holding dear.
Everything I thought I once knew,
Was nowhere close to your truth.
My veins, my life have been severed.
Dear God, allow me to sleep forever.
I can’t believe I let myself become,
A slave to someone else’s addiction.
I hide in seclusion in my own hell,
Can’t leave safety without a shell.
There is no desire to do this again,
Without a light, without a friend,
Tomorrow does not look too good,
I wouldn’t live to see it if I could,
If all that I find eventually hurts,
Time without you feels even worse.
There is no easy pain free escape,
My life isn’t even my own to take.
All I ever wanted is out of reach,
Seeing you happy is just killing me.
My heart, my will have been severed.
Dear God, allow me to sleep forever.
I can’t believe I let myself become,
A fool for desiring a good addiction.