Detached myself from this world,
Gave away everything I ever loved,
For just one moment of happiness,
One moment that never appeared.
Traded my heart away, what for?
This sorrow fits me like a glove,
Prayers are only a drawn out wish,
For waves to carry me out of here.
Tired of playing the childish games,
Waiting for more hollow apologies.
Waiting for inevitable heartbreak,
Before I am smart enough to bail.
Wallowing through meaningless days,
Dejection plagues me like a disease,
I am running away for my own sake,
I am running because I always fail.
Chasing a dream that doesn’t exist,
Losing a battle that can’t be won,
How do I explain this is killing me,
When words only fall on deaf ears?
Apparitions rise from a summer mist,
Luring me a little closer to the sun,
Past failures are all that I can see,
I’m held captive to my failed years.
Hope was the only thing I had left,
As I let it slip through my hands,
Now I cannot stomach the monster,
I somehow transformed myself into.
Barely alive, anticipating my death,
This is a pain nobody understands.
Did I exist to you? I’m not so sure.
What I had left died when I met you.
Unrequited love is all I’ve known,
Everything else is merely charades,
I have found the point of no return,
And I failed to heed its warning.
Partaking in this endeavor alone,
Onlookers all have nothing to say,
It took all this suffering to learn,
I’m dead but your world keeps turning.