Sweet dreams every night,
My alternative to suicide,
Because I pray for an end,
And for once you to listen.
You cruel, merciless fuck,
Stop my heart with any luck,
Silently, painlessly, quickly,
For once hide your apathy.
Fix this mistake I’ve made,
And endured for a decade.
Sweet dreams every night,
Make the timing just right,
Recreate my happy place,
So you can take it all away.
Irony is cruel, so are you,
As I try to make it through,
Another inevitable letdown,
Lying here on the ground,
I deserve the dirt and shit,
That I have eaten to live.
Sweet dreams every night,
The killer wields his knife,
Giving me that fatal stare,
I smell his fear in the air,
And come to the realization,
He doesn’t want retaliation,
Just me to pay for my sins.
I consider this retribution,
For crimes I can’t commit,
After I have ceased to live.
Sweet dreams every night,
I’ve finally seen the light,
The harvester of the old,
Has come to take my soul.
With a slow gentle touch.
The purest form of love,
That I will ever witness,
Is in the dark angels’ kiss,
For the first time I feel,
Like everything is surreal.
Sweet dreams every night,
Out of mind, out of sight,
Right where I need to be,
Convicted but not guilty,
Exactly how I envisioned.
Dissected with precision,
Empty heart, blank mind,
My body will decay in time,
Like my friendships have,
Just leave me in the past.
Sweet dreams every night,
Consumed from the inside,
Picking me apart carefully,
As you’ve done to me daily.
Ripping my heart to shreds,
With every word once said,
As if I am still wide awake,
And I can no longer escape,
The four walls and no doors,
I have been stuck in before.
Soul searching every night,
For my ticket to a new life.